Ghosting Epidemic

The first woman I fell in love with ghosted me. Why? Because I was dumb enough to tell her that I loved her—one month after meeting her! It was an uncomfortable situation for us both :)

I didn’t want to be that crazy in love and she didn’t want me to be either! She politely said “She didn’t feel she was at the same place at the moment” and then… she disappeared, forever. I tried reaching out—to understand the situation and get some sense of reality and if it could ever change. But there was no reply. I tried again, nothing. I waited 3 weeks and then tried again. Nothing… and as each attempt to understand the situation passed, it became more and more consuming of my energy, time, ability to connect, and a lingering dread.


I should have ‘just let go’, obviously! Take the hint and stop trying. I get that. But when you’re genuinely in love with someone 'giving up' feels like a betrayal. It’s absurd but it’s true, that’s how it feels.


You go after the girl you love—you try and do what it takes to reach out to her and prove how much you care. Within reason of course! And that line is a maddening one to walk for everyone involved—deciphering fantasy from reality trapped in your own mind, spurred forward by silence. It’s a hopeless place to find yourself in. And the silence makes it linger in a way that burns it into your very being. You’re not just alone—you’ve been put in a tomb, branded for life-after-death.


After being ghosted, no matter who I talked to, I was always terrified that they would suddenly disappear too. That was the only sensation I was left with after having been ghosted—that the world was slowly dying. Being ghosted paralyzed my ability to connect, to trust and to reach out to other people without crippling fear in my bones. Ghosting is killing our ability to empathize.


Not all ghosting is the same, not all people do it for the same reason. Sometimes it needs to be done. I can understand that. Other times, it’s utterly needless and indescribably damaging to the person who was ghosted. The semantics of when ‘it is’ or ‘isn’t’ called for isn’t the point of the conversation—it’s what happens to US after we’ve been ghosted. That’s the crisis. Because ghosting doesn’t just disappear over time—it lingers, like emotional shadows, haunting us everywhere we go. We carry on as ghosts. We carry our ghosts with us. And slowly and surely this epidemic of lacking compassion is consuming us all.


Covid has made everything worse. Amplifying separation in a time of rampant arguing—forces feeding one another to create vacuums of deeply hurt people. The mental health crisis is accelerating. It’s getting worse every single day. People are reaching out to each other more and more over the internet. And yet, they’re being let down more and more because of it. People on screens aren’t ‘people’… they’re menus. Connections aren’t made anymore… they’re selected. And the effect is as haunting as it is because everywhere we go we’re less and less present—more and more of a ghost.


Politics shapes most of our social conversations but our subtle day to day interactions shapes most of our lives. Nothing is separate. But we experience the pain and hurt of separation all the time. That’s what living life in this very distant way is doing to us. Shadows of people isolated in environments of withering compassion, betrayed by the powers that be. It’s all going wrong at once. We need to talk, not run.


The apocalypse happens in the hearts of people first. The loneliness epidemic is just that. Without community we lose ourselves. Without words of connection we wither and fade. And in a world of ghosts like this one, something as harmless as saying I love you is no longer on the menu.

It all changes one person at a time. Stop the spread. The real epidemic is apathy.


9/11 Cowards Enable Evil to Continue

For four years on the anniversary of Sept 11th I stood at ground zero in New York wearing a shirt that said 9/11 was an inside job while wearing an American flag as a blindfold. I handed out DVDs of empirical corroborated evidence worthy of a court of law that all 3 buildings that came down in NY that day (WTC 1, 2 and building 7) were caused by pre-planted explosives (controlled demolition). Most people ignored me. Too dazed and confused in their everyday steps about this earth to so much as comprehend the magnitude of the information being presented to them. Some people insulted me or threatened to kill me. Others tearfully thanked me and praised me for demonstrating the courage they lacked. A marine saluted me for speaking out. Family members mourning their lost loved ones did too.

Each year I did this, security got tighter. On the tenth anniversary of 9/11 they set up barricades to keep attendees and protesters away from the memorial. Police officers pulled anyone wearing 9/11 truth attire out of the crowd and led them off site to be placed in a pen. They were only allowed out of that pen if they removed their attire.Everyone but me did so. I refused. I kept my shirt the way it was. And I walked out of that pen in brazen defiance of the cops who had been ordered to control the photo op so that more people wouldn’t bear witness to the truth I sought to expose. I then walked a few blocks over to find an area where there were enough protesters that the police wouldn’t risk arresting us all. I stood there for 8 hours without moving or speaking—wearing the American flag as a blindfold—handing out DVDs just as the years before.

Last week the University of Alaska released a study concluding that building 7 did not collapse because of fire—contradicting the findings of NISTs 7 year study to the contrary.I have an acquaintance who has argued this issue with me for three years. He tried to speak against all of the information I presented to him. And yet at the same time he refused to research or investigate the evidence firsthand. Can you imagine that? Someone with the self-serving audacity to smear me in public who concurrently refuses to review the very information he’s smearing me for? He still hasn’t taken the time to review that information. He’s smart. He’s competent. He thinks of himself as a ‘good person.’ And yet... he remains silent. He dwells in ignorance and fear and yet he’s too much of a coward to admit to himself the coward that he is. Cowards are like that. And if it were just a conversation between two people I’d be more forgiving of his cowardice... but it’s not. It’s the murder of 3000 people and ongoing endless wars as a result of that day. Millions of people have died because of cowards need to hide.

Today is the 18th anniversary. And everywhere I walk on this earth I see cowards in hiding. People who say they intend to enact change by hiding. People who lie to themselves and to other people. People who play games and burry their heads in the sand. And they don’t care about how it affects anyone else. They think of themselves as ‘good people’ all while they hide from truth and say nothing. And because of their choices... the world gets worse every single day. My world and your world get worse. Every... single... day...

I wish cowards knew how profoundly damaging their silence is. How it’s not ok to be like that. How they aid and abet murderers and the worst people on this earth. But they don’t. Because to a coward the most important thing on this earth are the lies they tell themselves, no matter the cost to anyone else.


Art of Rejection

            I started writing my first script when I was 10. It was pretty bad. Really bad actually. But in retrospect it was the good kind of bad. The project was called Mixed Movies and essentially it was a mix of different characters and themes from popular franchises to create something for everybody. So basically, I came up with the idea for the Lego Movie decades before it was released.
I never did finish that project. But I did complete a novel shortly after. Orion was a story about teenagers saving the world in the future. It was also pretty bad. Better. But still bad.
I remember giving Orion to a few of my mother’s friends to read. They gave encouraging and altogether positive feedback. But they also mentioned the things that I needed to improve as a writer. I’d never had that happen to me before as a kid. Or not to that degree anyway. Having adults read your innermost thoughts and outright tell you that they’re not good enough?! Daamn.
I was crushed. Literally stunned. I lay in the car without moving for hours. It felt like my world was crashing down. Rejection redefined my experience of what it was to be an artist. Before that, storytelling was only about expressing myself. Now it was about finding something deeper than what I already understood. To really write I needed to grow up and experience the world. Rejection was my initiation.
I wrote my second book over the next two years as I moved through junior high school. My parents got divorced, general teenage anxiety and adolescent discomfort ensued, but on the whole, things were ok. Nintendo was great. I was the fat kid so I ate a lot. And most importantly, my dreams of being an author/filmmaker were still plentiful and possible. I put everything I had into writing that second book with the full intention of being taken seriously as an author.
It still sucked. But it did have a few decent parts…
In my mind, book three was my final shot to prove once and for all that I wasn’t a total crap writer. Book three (at age 16) was the be all end all defining moment of my life! This was it… I’m coming world and you better be ready! I feverishly wrote that third book over the course of the next couple years. I poured everything I was feeling and thinking into it!
And then… when it was finished… it was by far… without a doubt… the worst thing I had ever written.
I kind of gave up on being a writer for a couple years after that. Kind of a ‘Screw it, I suck at this, I’m done’ sort of deal. But I kept thinking of stories all the while… slow cooking ideas in the back of my mind just in case I got struck by lightning and suddenly developed talent.
High school ended in an anticlimactic residue of moving on to college. No lightning. Just life.
And then… a few years after my catastrophic third book… I decided to try writing again. Just… throw something on the page and mix it up, you know?
It was good. Actually good.
My fourth novel (age 19), Popped Culture is the story of a woman named Joan, formerly a woman named John. It’s about her life, the people in her life and… her former penis in a pickle jar. The book tackled themes of identity in a complex, absurd yet mature way. It helped me realize just how important writing was for me.
For the first time, expressing myself wasn’t something that hurt. Now writing was something that helped me to grow. That transition marked an important shift in perspective and drive. I was officially a writer again. And with that, I was going to submit my work to publishers.
Part of rejection is feeling like a failure. It turns out it doesn’t matter if your work is good if nobody publishes it. I tried submitting repeatedly as everyone does but… nope. A few hundred rejections and a couple of replies but… nothing materialized. So… I tried writing another novel! Reverie, my fifth book (age 20) and submitted that to publishers too! But… nope. It still wasn’t on the level that it needed to be. Close but no cigar.
Frustrated and discouraged by relentless rejection I decided to make a bold move and produce a local graphic novel. I orchestrated a two-month photoshoot with dozens of locations, actors, friends, costumes and effects to unfold all across Edmonton. I then drew overtop of those photos in photoshop and created a unique cell painted style. This took months of production, illustration and assembly.
I then took a Flash Web development course at NAIT. I was going to design my own website—self-publish my fourth and fifth novels as well as my new graphic novel! I needed to think bigger… that was the key to finally breaking through! I needed to aim higher… and that website (age 23) was my road to reaching the world! Ready or not here I come!!!
Nothing. Nobody. Zip.
In retrospect, my site barely had anything on it. The graphic novel I made with my friends was juvenile and poorly presented. I didn’t promote or publicize my work at all. It was just… me wanting to be all grown up as a writer without actually being there yet. But it felt like I was onto something. Like there was something really there… deep down… beneath the surface, hidden in the words.
It felt like there was a distance between people that writing had the power to amend. Rejection was just other people telling me that I hadn’t succeeded in communicating with them yet. I viscerally longed to articulate things deeper than what I understood. It drove me. It fueled me. And in a way it consumed me. My once pastime was now my sense of purpose.
I worked two years lining steel pipe with fibre glass to save up to go to the New York Film Academy’s intensive one-year filmmaking program. I wrote my sixth book, The Collection—18 shorts stories—in that time as well. I submitted that book to publishers too. Nothing. So I published it myself on my website again. I submitted grants in my spare time while working industrial labour. Nothing. Nobody believed in me. Not yet. No publishers, no grants. Just me and the dream I clung to.
My expectations about my art were always overzealous, rushed and entitled. Like an arrogant kid. I wanted to reach a point of understanding so badly that I insisted I was already there. But the truth is you never stop reaching. Even if you’ve fallen and especially if you’re falling. Desire’s like that. And as bad as desire is, dreams are worse. My dreams were haunting. I’m sure you know what I mean.
I went to film school (age 25). I graduated. I made multiple short films that I wrote, directed, produced or edited. I learned to do everything I needed to do so people would finally listen.
My short films were good. They got into mid-range festivals, not top tier. They won a few awards. The feedback was very strong. It felt like a shot of hope on an otherwise bleak path. I finally had a stage to speak from. The value of my work was clear and apparent to everyone. Finally!!!
And yet… it was only shadows and whispers. Fleeting applause in sparsely filled theatres. No job offers, opportunities, paycheques or conceivable paths forward. The road of fifteen years that I had already worked to be a writer/filmmaker was only now beginning. Reality wasn’t as warm as my naïve imagination had been.
And so… I put my short films online for free.
All three short films focused on relevant real-world issues in a unique non-confrontational style. I wanted to use narrative to encourage conversation. To take what I had learned from my previous inability to articulate myself and transform that into a means of helping other people overcome conflict.
The decades that I had been a bad writer, combined with the amount of rejection that I’d received slowly refined my ability as an artist. I finally understood what was previously beyond my understanding. Writing held an invaluable secret. Combinations of words contained a long-lost way to traverse discourse and compel bitter enemies to bury the hatchet. That was my mission now. That was the purpose behind my art. I was going to use my words to confront controversy.
Coming Home premiered at the Montreal World Film Festival and shed light on negligence surrounding elderly care. 3 Needs premiered in Montreal a year later and was a short film about homelessness in New York. Blindfold was nominated for the Edmonton Film Prize and was a short film about the strong unconscious resistance people have to confronting controversy. All three films invited deep nuanced discussions. Not only were those films vessels for me to be understood as an artist, more importantly, they were water cooler events for other people to gather around and discuss deeper concepts by.
A good story is a reflective lens to view reality. It offers perspective and compels deeper thought. It’s not simply a uniform, linear, three act monotone romp. It’s a vibrant, lush awe-inspiring ballet. And because of this, narrative and artistic storytelling are uniquely situated to delve into the most heated of controversies. Even those controversies that people would normally want nothing to do with. That’s the power of storytelling. That’s the power of words. A turn of phrase can upend a concept.
Fans of my short film Blindfold created foreign language subtitled versions of the film just because they wanted to help get the word out about it. That’s how much community spirit was behind the idea. I was featured on popular online podcasts, Big Breakfast, Edmonton Film Festival, had 10’s of thousands of views and penetrated the conversation of activist circles all around the globe. Even the editor of the National Post personally wrote an article about my film. Blindfold struck a cord with people who were tired of pleading to deaf ears. It told their story in a way that everyone could understand.
Through Blindfold’s brief success I met a local activist named Bruce who was willing to invest $5000 into my next socially conscious project. That project just happened to be Hold Me, the script I had already written for my first feature film.
Hold Me is the story of an end of life caregiver whose job it is to hold and console people being voluntarily euthanized. The film was written to shed a light on grief in a way that helped the audience overcome their own grief. Hold Me was designed to be a tool that people could use to heal themselves in their real lives. The film was my first feature length project (age 28-33).
Bruce’s $5000 investment was soon met with a number of other smaller investments from my friends and family. The support that I had always lacked and never been able to pull together from the outside world now came in from those closest to me.
I managed to raise $25,000 dollars between friends, family, crowd funding and a public screening of my short films held at the Garneau. It wasn’t enough to make the movie. Not by a long shot. But it was enough to lighten the load.
I couldn’t raise any more money. I tried. I pitched the project to a couple of people to collaborate with, but they didn’t understand the underlying motivation behind my work. I didn’t just want to make an entertaining movie. I wanted to re-contextualize the application of filmmaking for therapeutic use. Entertainment wasn’t the point. Helping the audience was. That was my vision for my work.
Without raising the money that I needed and accustomed to having to do things on my own I did the dumbest thing anyone can possibly do for a film they believe in. I decided to go into debt to fund the feature myself. The rest of the budget was now my responsibility.
I moved forward with independently producing Hold Me for five full years. In that time I also wrote two other books that publishers snubbed, Rise and Play Reality: How Videogames Are Changing Everything! All of my work was now exclusively focused on cultivating deeper conversations and encouraging compassion in response to controversy.
Financing a feature film on your own is kind of like tangoing with a guillotine. If anything goes really wrong, it’s on you to fix it… that is, assuming you survive. If you run out of money, you have to find more. It’s a really, really awful feeling. I managed to scrape by. The shoot went well, principle photography wrapped without incident. The film was half complete. I had managed to get what I needed.
It wasn’t until post production that it all finally became too much for me. Much to my dismay, in the window of time when Hold Me was being produced there was a change in policy unfolding in the city. What once would have been $17-$20,000 returned to me from local production expenses on Hold Me suddenly vanished. The tax credit no longer applied. And that $17-$20,000 differential was now my personal responsibility to make up for. I appealed the decision. I did everything I could. But they wouldn’t listen. They only heard paperwork not the fact that I had actually done the work.
That broke me. Completely.
This time, it wasn’t just rejection. It wasn’t just failure. It felt like the world was trying to kill me and everything I valued and had worked so hard for. Being an artist was just too hard. My energy was fading. After decades of work… I was losing my dream.
But then, while working industrial labour again to chip away the debt of the film, I decided to try writing another grant for Hold Me. Maybe the entire world wasn’t against me? Maybe I just had to keep trying? No matter how much it hurt. I had to keep trying.
I opened the envelope on the toilet expecting the verdict to end up in the bowl. But to my amazement, this time I actually managed to get it. The Edmonton Arts Council, after previously rejecting Hold Me twice in pre-production, gave me a grant. They approved a $6000 investment to help me with editing costs. It literally kept me alive.
And yet… receiving that grant in the face of concurrently losing far more money because of production woes left me viscerally changed. I wish I hadn’t felt that way. I wish I were just grateful and nothing more. But a queasy uncertain feeling of everything crashing down around me had crept into my veins. The film had been too hard to make. The marketing budget was now gone and I was up to my ears in debt. But even worse than all of that, I had completely burnt myself out.
Burnout is brutal. I won’t go into details. I’ll just say that I learned my lesson.
Taking that film on myself was a stupid decision. I should have made sure everything was what it needed to be before producing Hold Me. I should have been more pragmatic and cautious—understood just how insanely long and hard an independent feature film is to pull off! But I didn’t. I had stubbornly only cared about the opportunity to share my work. And as much as it hurt to keep struggling all the time, I remained proud of the work that I had done. Hold Me was a strong film. For that at least, I hadn’t failed.
After the film was completed I was invited to sit on a grants review board and pass judgement on other people’s projects. It was tough. There are a lot of very talented people in this province and they all deserve a hand in their pursuits.
After one of the meetings I remember walking with a woman who had been invited to represent the literary arts. I was there as a filmmaker even though fundamentally I identify as a writer.
As we walked she talked about her work and her experiences learning from rejection. She brought up the fact that she had a part time job teaching creative writing to the next generation of people just like us—the next generation of artists with looming initiations. She said to me: “I don’t know why I encourage them to write. You know what it’s like.”
Her posture was fragile. Her pupils were wide. She moved with an elegance and grace of someone who had once danced on broken glass. She knew what it was to plant her heels too firmly on unwelcome ground. She maneuvered herself as if she had learned to fly. Anything to keep that weight from setting in again. I could see in her delicate and tortured mannerisms the scars and war wounds that I myself had come to acquire. From writing. From trying to be an artist. From rejection after rejection. And despite it all, to keep reaching.


Alone With Each Other

A side effect of people spending more time online is that many of our interactions with each other are looped back again through ourselves. By reading what other people say through text, or engaging one another indirectly through likes and shares, we're extrapolating fine details of socializing with others as they pass through our own internal filters. The result is that, in a way, we're alone with ourselves even as we engage with others. You can be alone holding a phone, while texting to another person. They're there. Your'e there too. But really, you're alone with them, without them being there. You have to make up for them not being there in real life. And you make up for that by being there for them in your own mind... Like the dinosaurs in Jurassic Park, we fill in the genetic code of their absence with our own genome. Hence, perceptual bias/greater reflection is required to communicate correctly in their absence. We have to evolve ourselves to stay connected to each other.
Our internal state of mind factors into the way in which we see what other people communicate. And so the context of their words can very easily be confused. This is a blockade of reflection as much as communication. This is a limitation of us all. The manner in which we're communicating online requires a greater sense of self and conscientiousness of others. We don't communicate well enough to communicate right now. So we graft to memes or the person who wrote the best blog about something. Our identity therefore is a compiled plethora of externalized reflection shared openly with the world. But, even then... we're alone. Sharing is being openly shared in private, and then publicly liked in solitude, only to be discussed secluded by ourselves, with one another.
Talking on the phone was different. You could hear people--get a sense of their feeling without interpreting that feeling through yourself. Face to face, you're looking right at them--they're right there.. But this?... constantly engaging with people indirectly... We're alone with each other. And it's pushing us together as much as it's pulling us apart. The only way forward is to adapt. Not only how we communicate with each other. But who we are as individuals those rare moments nowadays when we really are alone with ourselves.



Destiny isn’t written. It’s in the writing. Everyday, one moment at a time. A chance encounter, a mysterious sequence of events, an uncharted course on an open horizon. Days are grains of sand. And night sees them fall through the hourglass, forming mountains of memories as we swing on the spiral. The purpose isn’t to reach a destination, it’s to reach out. To grow. Explore. Expand. Evolve. To feel your pulse quicken and your heart beat. Chase dreams. Risk being uncomfortable. And know that everything will be alright. Because you’re a part of something greater than yourself. And you become greater the more you’re a part of it.

The common cliché that everything happens for a reason isn’t quite true. The truth is, everything happens and we reason why that might be. The bigger picture is more than we can see. The larger purpose is more than we can guess. And the part that chance plays in it all is like a jester jousting. Truth is, everything happens for a reason, but chance doesn’t reason.

Intuition is the key. Wisdom is the safe. And where one meets the other, both are rewarded. Nurture the journey or risk it all and fall. Do both. Through the clouds to the stars and back again. That’s the path. For however the sun falls on the horizon, however the mountains gleam, know that chance will unsettle any course or path through time but that which you can never know. No time. No guarantee. No fate but what you make. And know destiny.



One 3x5 American flag = $5.00. One custom made t-shirt = $16.00. One hundred custom cards = $20.00. Standing motionless at Ground Zero on September 11th, wearing a shirt that says ‘9/11 was an inside job!’ and an American flag as a blindfold =

New York has always been my favorite city. From the eccentric honesty of every shade of skin and style to the awe-inspiring-eclectic-architecture, there’s simply no place like it. I always knew I’d live there someday, I just never thought I’d belong there. So, when it came time to hop on the plane and wheel my every earthly possession across the border, it came with a sense of elation and purpose.

“Wow, kill yourself,” an irate teenager snaps as he passes me—standing in the rain amidst an endless stream of people. I can only imagine their faces—my eyes have been closed and covered all day—my vision restricted to a slim slit of feet passing amidst a few remaining protesters talking.

“Why don’t you let those people rest in peace?” an old man bitterly asks. I don’t speak.

“I know people who died when those towers came down and I think what you’re doing is despicable,” a deeply hurt woman states, pausing just long enough for me to feel the power of her words. I don’t move.

The occasional person tugs at the cards in my hand—instructing them to see the truth for themselves and research the matter rather than simply judging me for my opinion on it. But for the most part, I’m overlooked in plain view.

“Heroic move, man,” a passing stranger says.

“That’s powerful shit right there,” someone else exclaims.

I wonder if I’m making a difference; if I’m a freak in their eyes or just another billboard advertising something. I wonder if the dead would want justice; if their families would want revenge. I wonder if the truth matters to people and whether or not hearing it is worth their time. But mostly I wonder how at the end of the day, when my blindfold’s off and I’m riding the subway back home, how I could still have 83 cards left in my hand. But, then again, anyone who knows the truth about 9/11 knows how hard it is to tell people the truth. If only I didn’t have to resort to theatrics to bring attention to the issue. If only people gave a damn even when it wasn’t convenient. 

I left New York a few months later—mission accomplished: my short film Blindfold has been completed. But, now that I’m back, I remember my purpose in New York—no matter where I am.

Banana Bread

            I slowly open my eyes, groggy from the night before—my friend had brought over some hash-banana-bread. But, between the three of us we’d only managed to finished off half.
            I wander around the house in my underwear, waiting to wake up. I pet my kittens and put away a few bags of groceries that my mother left out. It occurs to me that it’s not like her to do that, but before I can think twice about it my sister shows up to tell me something’s wrong. Our mother’s in the hospital—she says ‘symptoms of a heart attack.’
            The Emergency Room extends into the waiting room where our emergency waits for a bed. There’s one television with fifteen people uncomfortably looking through the screen in between glances at one another. A drunk guy in a wheelchair sings Ozzy Ozborn at the top of his lungs until a nurse wheels him away. My mom sits calmly beside me, telling me she’ll be ok. I know her health well enough to remain sceptical.
            After a few hours she’s given a bed and hooked up to an ECG—another screen to stare through. The room we’re in is divided by curtains to give some privacy to the handful of people and their guests. It’s surprisingly quiet—no screams of pain or doctors desperately trying to save people’s lives—just an opium head, giggling uncontrollably as an embarrassed relative sits at his side. ‘Curtains only do so much’ I think to myself, pacing our side of the curtains.
            Tests are ordered. Doctors introduce themselves with limp handshakes and fleeting eye contact. My sister and my mother make small talk—perfectly relaxed. The tests come back inconclusive—they don’t know what’s wrong, which means we don’t need to stay. We go home. I call into work and use a vacation day so I can be with my mom and make sure she’s alright. Or, at least that’s what I tell myself—‘being with her will make her alright.’
            I struggle with what I’m supposed to be feeling. I don’t cry, this was overdue—my mother’s obese and that lifestyle only has one outcome. I’ve fought with her for years about it, but the last thing I want is to say ‘I told you so.’ Instead, what I feel is hope. I hope that she’ll be ok; that I’ll be ok without her.
            She recovers fully in just a couple of days from the symptoms the doctors couldn’t diagnose. She says ‘it was a wake up call about her health.’ I don’t struggle with how to feel this time—I’m relieved to hear her say that. And as my mother throws away what’s left of the hash-banana-bread, innocently stating how good it was, I realize why her ‘symptoms’ couldn’t be diagnosed. 

Consuming Progress

In the beginning technology was a pointy stick. Suffice to say, nowadays that stick would be cheaper, lighter, pointier and most likely be made in Mexico or China. It will travel thousands of miles just to be put on sale and purchased for occasional use. It’ll be available in different colors and sizes. It will be owned and loved by everyone until some kid pokes his eye out. Then after the public shock and subsequent lawsuits subside the stick will be recalled and replaced by a yet pointier stick… I want it.